I'm not entirely sure why, nor am I entirely sure when it began (though I'm pretty sure this began bothering me about 6 months ago), but my attitude towards the weekend are changing.
My weekends have become a time to embrace the worst of my habits, which also promotes reclusion and laziness. I'm finding I just don't get anything productive done, and beyond a close circle of friends I no longer really go out and try to see anyone anymore. I even avoid things like facebook and MSN at times, because I have become that ridiculous.
This never used to bother me before, but now I am finding myself actually looking forward to Mondays when I am back at work; forced to be social, with a "normal" routine, responsibilities and productiveness. For the longest time it was the other way around, as it is for most people... because I really don't get that much enjoyment out of my job, and yet still, since I've discovered how to mitigate my work stress, it turns out that work is easier to deal with now than not working.
I can barely believe I am even writing this.
I need to find something to occupy my time during evenings and weekends that doesn't allow for my indulgences. Ideally, it will have a paycheque associated with it, though I wouldn't be surprised if that doesn't remain a requirement for long.
I need to stay busy. I cannot be left to my own devices. I just get too bored and make these damaging decisions. It's a routine I'm stuck in that I need to find a way to change.
Anyone have any suggestions? :)
Monday, March 24, 2008
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We live in a pretty sad world when even the weekends start to get to us.
I remember a Sopranos episode I saw where one of the Russian characters (Tony's one-legged mistress) said that Westerners (Americans) have so much time to just think about themselves that they go mad ruminating about their problems, instead of solving them - resulting in the need for psychiatrists, self-help books and thousands of medications. In the East, as it were, the poor simply don't have the time to dwell on problems of this nature for very long. They are too busy working and exerting themselves to fall into their heads - so the character's spiel goes.
Without consistent psychical activity, both the mind and the body become lethargic, leading to feelings of boredom, reclusion and inadequacy.Our culture in part conditions us to just stay in and absorb the world through screens and commodities rather than getting ourselves out there.Things have simply become to comfortable inside!
Getting yourself into a regimen of exercise or outdoor activites - on the weekend when you have more time- gives yourself something to look forward to when the week ends and will get your body and mind a better path to conserving and maximizing your energy.It can be as simple as a walking in a forest or a taking bike ride or boxing in a gym.
Planning some endeavor that takes you away from the all too familiar settings of home and work, not just as a distant novelty, but a regular basis, will give yourself more breathing room and can help all kinds of thought processes.
That is my suggestion.
You are ME right now, or maybe I am you? Except for the looking forward to working on Monday. And having weekends off for I do no ever get weekends off. EVER.
I suggest: going to the gym, or joining a club LAME sounding yes but it gets you out of your rut, I find.
I also avoid MSN like crazy, I'm one of those "appear offline" people, who cries about having no friends, no social life, and a facebook with almost 400 people on it, SIGH!
Sometimes it's fine to be lazy and take some "down time" for yourself. As far as getting excited for work, that makes sense to me b/c I enjoy structure and find it easier to accomplish things when they MUST or NEED to be completed.
I suggest that if you are just in a lull, why not embrace it, don't even clean or do anything....then once things build back up you'll be FORCED to do them and find that your weekends may become just a structured as your work week b/c you HAVE or NEED to get things done.
I don't know....maybe I'm just lazy ;)
as i read this i just picture a normal bit of down time, also this happens as you get more and more into your twenties. if you can believe i used to go out ALL the time every single weekend both nights PAR-TAY!! now i couldn't even if were being paid too. don't be hard on yourself just stay aware like you are of how you are feeling and go with it. true friend ships always survive these times.
i always find the to do lists really help.
also, why not just be happy spending time with YOU. that is a tough one but is very very worth it.
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