Another package of awesomeness...

This package arrived for me this morning, but I did not have time to open it. Strangely enough, before I picked it up I swear I could hear an E-minor being played from somewhere within it... can't wait for work to be over now :P

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Thanks for advice over the last couple of days guys, I really appreciate it. There is no denying that I definitely need to be exercising more. My biggest problem is that I find it difficult to change my routines, be it adding new ones or removing old ones. I'm not making excuses though; I can and will overcome!

To Suzie specifically: I am the exact opposite of you in that respect... the whole waiting for things to NEED or be FORCED to be done. I find it the most difficult to get motivated under these conditions. I can't stand feeling like I'm being FORCED to do something... or as if I'm doing something because it NEEDS to be done; I will tend to resist this belief and neglect whatever it is that needs to be done out of spite (albeit subconsciously and otherwise rationalized). If something is going to get done, it needs to be because I'm choosing to do it.

That is actually one of the most difficult aspects of my psychology that I have had to reconcile. It's the reason I don't blog more often (as soon as I begin feeling like I have to or should write a post, it won't happen), as well as why I go through periods where I can't get motivated to work (the periods when I get very anti-capitalism in my thinking), and why I can't seem to stop smoking pot.

It's something I've thought a lot about. And something I'll write a bit more in depth about later on (hopefully).